You know that sudden breakdown out of nowhere.
And you just felt so restless and unsure of what to do.
Everything around you is making things worse.
The feeling of letting out things gets tougher every minute.
And most of the time, you just cant do anything to it.
And sometimes , you just cant afford to make your own decision.
Mixed of emotions.
Angry, sad, pissed off, irritated all at one time.
And sometimes, you don't know who to blame it.
Its either yourself or others.
It gets harder when you take the wrong step.
It happens unwillingly and its unavoidable.
And sometimes without realising,  both parties are affected.
"ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS"
Words are hurting, but actions are much much more hurting.
If only there's such things as running away from our problems.
If only problems can just fly away and never come back.
But, every problems that happens was for a reason and its all decided by him.
Its also him that we can talk to and let everything flow out and eventually making you feel better..

Friendship.

I don't know why but things are just beyond our control.
I don't know whose at fault but sometimes its just really disappointing.
Is it because of ego? Refuse to understand each other? Or other reasons?
I guess everyone change as years passed by and we refused to understand it.
Sometimes i just wished that we can turn back time and just stay there forever.
I missed the old us.
I used to be close with someone in the group.
But eversince poly, i can really feel that we are drifting apart.
Or should i say, we are already drifting apart.
No more of those messages that we used to tease each other and all.
Its getting weird nowadays and i can feel this wall in between us.
Tried my best to accept the changes but sometimes its beyond our control.
Its just hard for me to tell them face to face or anything because i know everyone will get hurt in one way or another.
Or sometimes refused to accept what we said sometimes and just let it go.
So do we have to give in sometimes when its not our fault?
Different people have different views. So that should be the problem.
And i really hoped, the promise will stay.
And i will try my best to understand each one of you no matter what.
I really hate this feeling right now and im really getting tired of it.
Give in is the only way since it will solve the problem.
I really do love and treasure this friendship so much.

Time to blogged!
Since there's plenty of time and coincidentally im using the lappy to complete my sch quizzes so why not I blogged. hehe.
It was such a busy week last week with two tests, but Alhamdulillah I survived! Whatever I studied all came out and now im just waiting for the results. Be it good or not, i already did my best.

After a long time not going to the beach and finally when i had the chance to go, im super duper EXCITEDDDDD! I LOVE to go to the beach. Maybe its because of the peaceful atmosphere and also the natural smell of the sea that can just make your problem go away. I don't know if that applies to other people as well. Dad was the one who initiate the plan since he wants to go fishing, he asked me and my younger sis to tag along. Just nice, when i was just not in my mood and i really need to go somewhere to make me feel better.  Went out around 830 am and reached changi beach around 9 am. So it was just the three of us. Daddy and his two angels,hahah.
Dad brought along 6 fishing rods and i asked him why he brought a lot and his reasons, two fishing rods for each of us. Hahaha,it was beyond expectation and end up we just used it anytime we want. Just after a few minutes after dad set up everything in place, the yellow rod starts to shake. It means that the fishes are eating the worms! And yes! there was 2 small fishes hooked on it! MY very first two fishes to start off the day. But the main unexpected was... i saw two little sea otters in front of my eyes. Although it s far, but i can just see their head popping out and the sound of them calling each other was really amazing. Never ever expect that there will be sea otters at changi beach. Stayed there all the way until 3 pm. And as expected eventhough i never swim inside the sea, my skin will still get sunburnt:( I don't like the feeling of it since im having allergies to my skin. Rashes starts to appear, redness and itchiness everywhere especially when im schooling right now. Its really not a good idea.  Till now, its really uncomfortable but i just had to endure. Sighh, the feeling of restricted because of the allergies is really making me feel so.....urghh. I shall think positively. It will heal in few days time. (:

Look at the two teeny weeny head popping out, its the sea otters!

 Always stay positive even if a little part of you is really at the other end.

Things may not happen as you wish, but definitely there's a reason why for each things to happen.

Just believe in yourself.

Stay Home Sunday

ITS SUNDAY AND TOMORROW IS MONDAY!
The last few hours of weekend left for me to enjoy.
Not really enjoy though.
So, how I spent my weekends so far?
Met my ladies yesterday to study together. We planned to study at CoffeBean but too bad, we totally forgot that its the weekends so its pretty packed with humans studying and slacking there. So we end up going to azimah's house to study. Its kinda weird though when the fact that each of us are not studying the same thing except for me and rashidah. I really do miss studying together and doing the same subject or anything that everyone understand. At least its better right? But, dream on. Everyone of us have different ambition so we cant be doing the same thing all the time. Yesterday was such a productive day caused I realised all of us were serious in what we were doing. And its only once in awhile we are able to spent the time together.
Its only the first week of school and I've started studying. Its very unusual right? But that's the fact! And I think mummy doubts that im studying. Hmmm, as usual.
Class test, exams, quizzes are all coming in ready. Its always the usual routine when we came back to school and all the lecturers keep scaring us with all those teaching plan and all when its only the first week. Two test during the second week of school. Like seriously we are still in our holiday mood. But the fact that we are going to be year three in a few months time means we have to buck up and start to be serious. Serious as in really serious.
Today, I shall stay at home and try to do something useful and productive. Except for this....Blogging. The mood is just here trying to let out everything. But im just lazy to do the editing of this blog cause I totally forget how to edit the template and all. Hehe. And who bothers to read this blog of mine.
Dad went out for fishing, Kakak out with her friends and its just me, my mum and adik at home. Its really kind of boring though, but its okay.
Enough for today I guess? Shall start studying and make sure its gonna be productive.
TOODLESS! (:

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Hahahaha, I really find this app cute and funny.

Its like you can create your own story and it turns out well!

Rascals !

 

Such a hectic week.

HEYY THERE!

After a few days of not posting ,here comes the mood to do so and also because I rarely had time to even touch the laptop due to busy schedule in school.

Last Saturday was cousin's engagement ,so I was mostly there the whole day to witness everything. Alhamdulillah everything went well and smoothly.

School was suppose to start this week but NP only starts on Wednesday,so it was such a short week in school. Monday was NP 50 celebration so it was a holiday for us and Tuesday was Hari Raya Haji.

Spent my Monday well by going to bestf 's house to play with the rascals. Its actually hamsters,Hehe.

After a few weeks of not playing with them, another batch of babies were born. They are so teeny weeny small, smaller than my palm. They are really fragile but quite fast to run around whenever we tried to carry them. I don't even know when did I start to like them. I don't really fancy them at first but maybe because its super cute. Too bad ayah refused to let me keep them eventhough I persuade him a lot of times.

Tuesday was Hari Raya Haji, so spent half of my day at grandma's house and then off to hospital to visit my uncle. Nothing much happened since it was quite rushing.

So, it was back to school on Wednesday! After nearly 7 weeks of not going to school due to attachments and holidays, I really do miss going to school and I miss my classmates.

We are already halfway through year two and so it was a new module for us which is more about cardio problems and more

Lesser module, lesser time in school but.... more STRESS!

Modules are much tougher this time since it involves research. No more of slacking and being laid back. Few more months and im going to be in year three.

Time is going to pass really fast. Close one eye and its already 2014.

Shall upload some photos soon.

Goodnight!

New blog & new post.

Basically, this is my very first post on a new blog.
I do have one last time which was like 3 years ago when I was 16 years old.
That was so long ago and it was such a 'kental' time.
About all those kpop fanatics especially.
I cant believe I went crazy for such things.
Reading the blog again can really make me feel so embarrassed.
Like totally, the way I blogged and what I blogged.
But, one good thing. That blog was more about my secondary school life and now im currently in year two taking diploma in health sciences(Nursing).
Time passed really fast and I don't know why I have the sudden interest to blog again.
Maybe because of my girls which asked me to do so.
Or maybe I just missed to do this. Hehe.
So, this new blog im not going to post that much or that often .
Not ever going to express my feelings or whatsoever but probably more on pictures and about school stuffs.
 More post about what Im doing now will be at a later part.
Now I shall figure my way out on how to edit the template and the blogskins.
 A long day tomorrow. Meeting my babies and helping out with the cooking since Tuesday is Hari Raya Haji. Yayy!
Toodles!